Ups and Downs..

So this week has had some ups and downs with the wedding.  We (as in Mum and Dad) paid off the venue, the cake, the catering, and we have almost everything done.  So it is getting so real and so close..and I am too excited.

However, there have also been some big hits.  People I really love maybe not being able to make it for health reasons and realizing how little some "friends" care.  If I just sit and think about these, I get very sad..and the person I want with me is Brian.

The thing I am most excited about getting married is having a best friend I DON'T have to call.  See, I won't have to call him because he is already going to be right by my side for the rest of my life.  The good, the bad, and the in between.  And there isn't anyone else I would want there with me.  He helps me see the bright side of things when I can't, and when there just isn't a bright side he comforts me and helps me feel better.  I won't have to worry about him backing out on me last minute cause he's already promised to be there good or bad for the rest of our life.  He listens to my endless stories about students, teachers, disorders, or anything else that completely fascinates or is in my life...even when it really doesn't matter to him.  He does this cause he loves me and he knows it is imprtant to me.  He will go places he doesn't really want to...just to make me happy.  I know there is going to be some really poopy things happen in my life, but as long as Brian is by my side I know I will make it through. 

So people keep asking, "Are you ready?"  The answer is simple, "HECK YES!"  I cannot be more ready to have my best friend by my side for the rest of my life.  The person I can trust with no doubts.  I am so ready to walk down that aisle and say, "I do" and get this party started!

Introduction

So I'm going to try this blogging thing.  I'm getting married in 30 days, so what better time to blog.  A month before I change my life forever.  I absolutely cannot wait, but before I get into all of that.  Let me introduce you to the love of my life...Brian Mathew Lewis.

I met Brian in August of 2005 at RA training.  However, after our 2 weeks of training I probably didn't talk to or really see him until the end of that year.  In May, as most college students do during the the last month of a semester, I spent every night at my best friend Erin's room (Thanks! :)) hanging out until the sun came up.  Lucky for me, she worked with Brian and he was there every night.  So we hung out every night...playing poker, watching movies, and getting to know each other.  He even drew me a picture of myself for my 20th birthday.  (I knew then this guy was special!)  He eventually asked me out fo the Friday before we all left to go home.  So we were SUPPOSE to go eat at El Zarape then go see Mission Impossible 3.  However, seeing as though we were not sleeping at night we both decided to take a nap before our date.  We woke up just in time to make the movie. =)  Well we went to the movie and half way through I start feeling off..I got dizzy and shaky, but made it through the movie.  As soon as the movie ends he drives me straight home to rest.  Great first date, right?!  Sleep through half of it, then get sick.  Needless to say, we left the next day to go to our homes for the summer and didn't talk all summer.

Well August 2006 rolls around and we move back to school for training.  When I move back I am technically dating a guy, but he stops calling as soon as I move back.  So that was over.  I then get moved to work in Brian's building, and we hook back up.  Hanging out constantly, working together, and ultimately becoming best friends.  Through out the year we kinda date, then just hang out as friends.  No one really knows what we were..including us. =)  (Truth is..we knew and we were scared of what we would become.)  Finally, after Spring Break we come back to school.  Both of us knew we truly cared for the other.  On March 28, 2007 we FINALLY officially get together.

Fast Forward three years: March 28, 2010.  Any other Sunday really.  We go play in our softball league after church, then go back to his apartment.  I decide I need a nap, and tell him to wake me up at 6:30 and I'll cook his anniversary dinner.  Did he ever wake me up?!  I feel a kiss on my forhead and him saying wake up..so I open my eyes and pretty much go into shock.  There is Brian on one knee asking me to marry him.  And all I can do is stare at him!  I'm still half asleep, I'm shocked..eventually I say yes and jump out of bed!  Come to find out he called my parents while I was sleeping to ask permission.  This was the perfect proposal for me..Our first date started after a nap and so did our engagement.

As the cliche goes "the rest is history".  But it is.  He was my first honest and real relationship and is the first man I ever loved, in fact he taught me what true love is.  I feel safe and as though nothing can hurt me when I am with him.  He is amazing.  He is smart, handsome, caring, goofy, patient, strong, and everything I need in my life.  He puts up with me, but not only puts up with me, he gives me a run for my money.  He's perfect for me.  I cannot be mad or sad when I am around him.  He makes everything better.  He is my Prince Eric to my Ariel..he is my other half.  I absolutely cannot wait to become Mrs. Brian Lewis and see where our live together will take us.